World passes me by

Well, the world passes me by and I can't do anything about it. You know the shot in the movies when they see the central character just standing in the middle and not moving and the world moves on and passes them by!! Thats the feeling I get right now. I am listening to Bulla, ki jana main kaun? A search for self (WHO AM I???) like all the other philosophers of the song's time and over the history of PHILOSOPHERS searching for this question. And put in a very apt poem by a 18th century Sufi-philosopher called "Baba Bulle Shah". Well, now this poem popularised by his modern version of Spiritual student and a Sufi rocker if you will like to call him that and he has with the quintessential story of struggle. But the reason I am writing about this song is because watching the video for the first time, I could relate. But the singer with his opinions and thoughts just caught and stuck in the moment and standing there, isn't an original idea for a video, it has been done in MILLIONS OF english song videos where our depressed singer and the social outcast just sits there wondering about how much money is going to make on this album(my guess is quarter of a million in royalties!!). But not the point of the blog, point is the way I feel and how I have started relating to things I thought were (how to put it) well, BULLSHIT. But when you are unsure you RELATE, that is your stress somehow forcing you to relate and makes you find solace to see that someone is suffering in the same way as you(kind of sadistic but when you are down you( When I say "YOU" I mean your physiology and chemicals in your body) will find anyway to bring you yourself up).

But The All Powerful questions "Who am I?" & "Why am I here?". The idealistic morons or smart asses told you that questioning attitude is good. But when you asked them why does PCl5(Phosphorous Penta-chloride) exists and why the structure is the way it is, they say somethings are the way they are. WHAT?? So we should only question things for which we can easily find answers for(I don't wanna put down people working on BLACK MATTER theories & Parallel Universes theory). Anyway I don't want to discuss my theory for the structure of PCl5. Most experts can't fight with my explanation. But hey who's complaining.

Well, what I believe is that, if the life is going straight for you. LET IT BE don't start asking questions you aren't ready to seek the answers to, so don't ask questions like "Who am I" & "What am I doing here". Thousands of philosophers have pondered upon these and have come up with (well, how to put it nicely!) JACK SQUAT. I think things should be kept simple. Believe me or not Einstein explained things very simply (which could be due to his Autistic condition, Asperger's Syndrome to be exact). I mean what he said made perfect logical sense even his self proclaimed biggest blunder is now the BLACK MATTER theory. And even scientists are turning into sensationalists these, but i mean it is the reflection of the society which is becoming more sensationalistic by the day. Well, what does it tell you when someone comes up with anti-matter and calls it "BLACK MATTER". Well the fatso chick sitting next to me is ANNOYING ME! with everyword that come out of her mouth.

Hi, How are you doing? I haven't seen you in the computer room lately.

Saw a very boring movie named "THE GIFT", well all people with southern accents.(Hate the southern accent, if you have a southern accent and you have a jesus tattoo with a hood in back of your truck, you know you are a red-neck). Like the Irish and Scottish accent very much but more so Irish accent.

But tell me did Venus blow your mind, Was it everything you wanted to find,
while you were looking for yourself out there. "Drops of Jupiter" - Train

Well finding my-self, finding your-self, What does it mean? When have I lost myself, so that I have to find myself?HUh!!HUh!!
I used to think its just westerners way of saying that the things that are happening around them are not their fault and They just want to put their heads in the sand like an OSTRICH (interesting thing is that this behavior has not been found in ostriches observed in wild or captivity). Well, whatever "just a saying", words said have no weight these days.

Well since I started this blog, the struggle has been with myself and top is nowhere near. If you are fighting with yourself, you are not going to reach anywhere that's a well proven fact. And another thing Katie holmes looks nice in THE GIFT and she has like 6 scenes and in most of them she is .... well, whatever!!!

Watch "Garden State", then you will understand what I mean, when you are not happening? I mean basically I am having my mid-life crisis way before and the worst part is I can't even buy a Porsche or a beamer to satisfy my ego.

I will continue this later...........I want time to stop. The thing is, it can be stopped if I am moving fast enough. But the thing is I am not moving at all, so its not even slowing down even a bit, let alone stopping. TIME also means I MET............................Really want time to stop. I guess then the earth should start spinning faster,to I could go to mercury so if mercury was hospitable I would live longer. Well, whatever!!!!! Evanescence - AC SCENE EVEN, they say contemplate more and think less. Descartes (a mathematician and a philosopher).

PS: Believe me or not, guitar is the door to your soul - Me, Me, ME